~奇迹会在下一瞬间出现~

2012-01-03T14:37:00.007+08:00

I appreciate all the effort and challenges we were in. In hard times, the things that really motivated me is not the end result, but the effort you have putted onto me.

I have joined for 8 months, a short but challenging journey. Thanks for fighting stronger than I am, braver than I am, slow to anger and keen to forgive. You have made my life very meaningful. However, perhaps I am still not the one you are looking for. Anyway, perseverance is my everlasting assets! I will continue to fight and assist you in any way I could- as a return of all your effort..

A sincere thanks to my mentor.

2011-12-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

Some words are better to left unsaid. Perhaps its only meant for people who really want to kn0w and I believe that they will be able to find out themselves.

It so hard to determine who is sincere, who is true to you. Anyway, I just continue with my busy life. Hope that time can tell the truth! So for now I just gonna play, work, sleep, eat, study! Life's great!

Out of so many guys, I wonder who is the one. I hope its you(:

2011-12-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

Thought you are different. Thought I would be able to tell you little more..

2011-12-03T03:13:00.002+08:00

我可能不会爱上你...

2011-11-29T03:25:00.001+08:00

...Attitude to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what other people think, say or do. It is more important than appearance, gift, or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home.
The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day...I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.
- Charles Swindoll

2011-11-03T01:54:00.002+08:00

Consistently reminding myself:

Be Faithful To Belief,
Be Slow To Anger,
Act Fast To Forgive,
Be Keen For Righteousness,
Be Brave to Justice,
Be strong in Spirit.

Tough time doesn't last, tough girl does. Shining even in the midst of darkness.

2011-10-06T01:56:00.005+08:00

In times of trails and hardship, you see the true color of human...
Friendship that last through thick and thin are most memorable...

Whenever I am disheartened, encouragement will come. Whenever I am tried, I will be put to rest. Whenever I am fighting hard, there will always be someone at home waiting for my return.

I really appreciate all the things I obsess. Every night, Mum never fails to wait for my return and pamper me with some nice food. In times of "war", my Comrades will always be there to fight this battle with me. In times of need, my Mentor will always be there to be my support. I am not perfect but with the whole team, we can be PERFECT!

Good things are meant to share! Some photos during my journey:

2011-08-18T01:07:00.003+08:00

The woes we said,
the past we had,
the things undone,
the pictures left behind.

The pain you had, I see it all.
The effort you made, it has justified.
But never can we be the same again.
Times has passed and we have changed,
but one thing remain:

Till the day that we die, the story will not come to an end.

2011-07-27T15:43:00.005+08:00

I really love these sentences a lot! Please pause, read and digest~

And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give up all I possess and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient; love is kind; it does not envy; it does not boast; it is not proud. It is not rude; it is not self-seeking; it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will pass away; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection, then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.

- I Corinthians, chapter 13

2011-07-21T10:30:00.002+08:00

Just a few moments of quiet time and a set of dessert is able to calm me down and cheer me up.

In the month of July, my organisation focuses on building up the team. Thus, there only few people went for sale. The turnover for the organisation is pathetically little. My team, we have to buck up. My aim: 20,000 pv this month.

With no pressure and heat, there will not be the formation of diamond.

2011-07-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

The pictures which we didn't post, the words which were left unsaid...
The new you, I am waiting in times ahead(:

2011-07-04T14:56:00.004+08:00

Well done is better than well said.

How you ever wonder: Out of the 10 goals you have set for yourself, how many have you fulfilled? If your answer is less than 5, perhaps you would wonder why is there a need to set goals for ourselves?
=> A measurable, achievable and specific goal will increase the tendency of achieving your goal.

Strive your best and never regret.
1. At every start of every month, set yourself a goal.

2. During the month, continuously reminding yourself of the things you hope to achieve at the end of the month and the remaining time you have.

3. Start your everyday afresh and stop whining! Whenever you feel like giving up, go back to the origin. Recall the reason why you have hanging onto this goal for so long.

4. In the last few days of the month, stretch your potential! Fight till the end. Fight till the last moment; never draw conclusion till the last moment!

Eventually, you know you have done your best. You are self conscious and feelings of disappointment, guilty, regrets is definitely not something that is going through your mind!

Last word,
Aim for the sky and reach among the stars(:

2011-06-28T10:10:00.006+08:00

It is never about having a stable and motivated organisation, it is always about having a stable and motivating leader.

In the past, I always thought that having a motivated organisation is the key to success. However, I was wrong. Leaders are the one who motivate and lead. As the result, it leads to a strong organisation. Hence, I aspire to be a motivating and inspiring leaders as well. For my organisation, for my own growth...

2011-06-25T16:32:00.004+08:00

I have just been promoted! Calculated my income for this month, definitely it could be a 4-digit paycheck! Aiming for a paycheck start with a number "3" or above this month. Thats means that I can adopt my child le! Yay! :D

Although I have been doing well in my business, but I realise that some of my friends are still quite skeptical towards this career. This sadden me. Initially when I just started, they discouraged me because they think that this career can't be done but now I have proved to them that this can be done(: Hope that they can be more open to it.

Hope to work together hand in hand with them one day(:

2011-06-15T15:23:00.003+08:00

Sunday. I went to church with a saddened heart. I am surrounded with trails and pain. The best way to injure a man is to injure the heart. I am torn and wounded. This Sunday, we had a prayer service. I went to the front the receive the alter call. I wasn't been lay hands by the pastor but 2 church staffs prayed for me. They pray and pray... They senses a spirit of depression in me and suggested me to release it out from my body by faith. I teared. I coughed out the spirit of depression and after the service, miraculously I feel so much lighter and happier! Thanks God for his mercy and glory(:

2011-06-08T01:35:00.003+08:00

The contrast between peak and trough...
Perhaps I kind of enjoy the process. A life of roller coaster? Pretty Interesting(;

2011-06-01T09:58:00.002+08:00

LORD, PLEASE PRAY FOR ME

Lord there are no earthly words left for me to say
I'm to the point now where I don't know how to pray
I just don't understand it Lord my heart is really torn
The more I strive to trust You the more my faith is worn
I know you have no favorites, Your word is plain to see
What You have done for others You can do for me
I know You are able and I know You're in control
Yet I need to know You're willing as I bear to You my soul
So Lord I come before You humbled at Your throne
Asking You to hold me Lord, I feel so alone
I'm grateful for the prayers of friends and loving family
But there's one thing I ask You Lord
Will You please pray for me?
His answer was 'My precious child I say unto you
No matter how things look right now I'm going to see you through
Cast your every care on Me your pain I understand
Remember I am holding you in My nail scarred hands.

Joye Atkinson
Tennessee

2011-05-30T11:11:00.002+08:00

The sorrow in my eyes, he has see it. The tears which I have hide, he pretend not to see it. For he know, I am too proud to shed before others...

Just closed a $3000+ deal but I don't seems to be very happy. All this is because, my relative had just passed away. People tried to console and comfort; if only it works. I prefer to heal my wounds on my own, because I don't know who can be a better doctor than I am. I prefer to be the laughter-provider, the counselor/ comforter rather than 'the one requiring comfort'.

Sadness may come, tears may shed; but time will pass and heal everything.

2011-05-23T11:38:00.002+08:00

My family members in Christ, I am so disappointed. Friday 20th May, I went for my cell group meeting. I have been hesitating whether should I share the good news of my business with my cell group. Finally, during last Friday I shared the good news with them. But the moment I mention that it is something related to my business, the atmosphere changes. The room is filled with silence. My heart shank immediately, my voice gets softer and softer, I no longer have the mood to share the good news with the rest. I really don't understand. Is there anything I have done wrong to deserve all these treatment? I never cheat, I never force neither do I pester anyone. I never regret sharing the news but maybe I will never share anything again...

My family members in Christ, perhaps you guys have not notice, but subconsciously you guys have started to judge me. Perhaps not for who I am but judge me for the things I am doing. Put yourself in my shoe and recall all the things you have said to me or behind my back, why have things turned this way?

2011-05-10T15:16:00.003+08:00

This company which I have joined for only 1 month plus, have allowed me to experience something which I have never experience before in my past 18 years. I received the most rejections and objections during this 1 month plus. However, through this 1 month, my capacity were being enhanced and I strive not just for my mentor, for myself but also for my organization& down lines. I have to constantly improving myself so that I am able to be a better leader, a better up line; for their sake.

When I am pursuing my dreams, God is with me... This 1 months, I relied on God for strength and persistent. I understand that only minority of the population is able to succeed and hence, I aim to become a part of the minority. Throughout this journey, I shed. It's not because I am weak or felt defeated, crying is just my way to destress. I am still that happy, cheerful and carefree happiieva after every time of crying(:

2011-05-06T14:57:00.002+08:00

These few weeks are really tiring! But I have stopped grinning and adapted to the busy lifestyle. Somedays, I will put myself to rest and engage in some fun as well! Yippee! Desserts keep my day going!(:

2011-04-29T10:09:00.004+08:00

You have to constantly give the rubber band a little stretch to maintain its elasticity. A rubber band which is left for too long will cause the rubber band to break easily. I want to be a rubber band with good elasticity. I know that all the hard work I have putted in will reap a harvest and the dreams of our organization can be achieve.

Everyone is working so hard. The goal is no longer money for most of the people; the current goal is to hit the target each has assigned for themselves. Happy to see their growth(: I am yearning to see the smile on their faces during our debrief at the end of April.

2011-04-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

The feeling of losing something precious, the feeling of heartache... I strive to do my best but it just seems like there is no ending to my hard work. How long more do I need to endure, how long more do I need to put up with all these pain? Probably, that's a question where no one could answer...

However, I'm not gonna bow down to fate. I shall be the one who decide my life. Mr. Challenge is way too weak for a opponent like me(:

2011-04-21T02:24:00.000+08:00

One is blessed to be blessings to many.

2011-04-04T00:47:00.003+08:00

One day if I think like others, speak like others ,perhaps that is when you really have to start worrying.

The start of everything is always the hardest part, you need to gain experience, knowledge and you need to build a strong foundation. Hence, before I started doing anything I will always make sure I am prepare to receive setbacks and challenges and at the same time, I also need to make sure that I am learning through all these experience and that my capacity will be increase. I am so grateful for a mentor like him who bonded me with the group, taught me from scratch and he is someone who brings hope and faith to me. The reason why I joined the business is because I wanted to help him, I am touched by his sincerity and his salesmanship. Through the journey, I have received rejections from clients and discouragement from my friends. Hence, I really appreciated friends that says: I know you will not take it whatever I say but when you are being promoted, treat me a meal! Hmm, I would say that they really understands me a lot. Everytime when I have made up my mind, it is almost impossible to change my decision, especially when my intention is to help others. I agree that sometimes I am irrational, I do for the sake of helping. But who knows, along the journey I will learn something new, I will make new friends and I will see more things in life?!

Most of the people gave me suggestions and discouraged me in joining this career, but to me I felt that it is a new challenges and helping others is never easy! Instead of discouragement, I actually prefer them to encourage me in taking the first step and guide me along. I never restrict my friends, I said: Go out there to do what pleases you, do not be afraid of setbacks , failures or negativity for I am your support group. When you fall, I will be there(:

But I would say that not much people around me have actually said this to me. Anyway, sometimes even me myself feels that I am a bit Unique in the sense that I see/think things differently. When people is enjoying and pleased with their current lifestyle, I said to God: God Almighty, here I am praying for trails and obstacles in my life. That through these trails and setbacks, my capacity will be enhanced and I will grow to be a better person for my loved ones and the group of people which I intend to reach out to.

Come to think about it, if things can be achieved so easily, I think there is a high chance for me to give up; for it is neither interesting nor fun! (:

2011-04-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

The past few months have not been smooth for me. Trails, setbacks and disappointment came but still, I continue to strive. I believe that trails are meant to strengthen me, to increase my capacity. If I have to learn through the long and hard way, I will.

Sometimes I wonder why am I always finding troubles for myself. But I know that there is always a certain group of people, certain things that I have to hold onto. Some people weights the pro and cons before they offer their helping hand but for me, I help before I think. Too much of thinking will only cause hesitation. If you think it's right, by all means do it!

There are also times where trails are corroding my optimism, my happiness and my confidence. However, I hold onto my belief and continue counting the stars in the sky; those are the promises God made to me. There are days where clouds may have blocked the stars but I know and I know that the stars is still there, the promises are still valid...

2011-03-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

Although I really really want to be there for the Genting trip, but it looks like everything doesn't go well.First is my dad and now is my friends. Alright, looks like I really have to give it a miss. Never thought that I am able to cry so much. Usually, I am calm, calm to the extent that I even forgotten that I still have tears. I can still remember the pain I experienced when I told my dad:" I am not going for the Genting trip."

Hopefully there is another chance where we are able to go for a trip together again. Perhaps, during the next holiday. However, the feel of missing out the trip that I matters so much and looking forward to, really saddened me. The thought that they will be going together for Genting trip but I am not able to be involve brings more tears. Alright, shouldn't think too much. Not being able to go is better than doing something that is against my principle. But if only someone is there to tell me that he/she is with me...

2011-03-25T17:30:00.002+08:00

I am blessed to have so much people around me that want to grow me. I will succeed!

I am already looking forward to the day where I can shout up loud to the whole world: "I am blessed to be a blessing to many!" I will succeed and I will benefit the needy. Aim for the sky and you will reach among the stars! (:

2011-03-25T01:15:00.002+08:00

Too much a time, we run short of words. Millions of emotions may be running through our mind but there is no way for us to translate them into words. If only we can be more expressive...

I wonder how many people heard of the song "More than words" by Westlife.

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
it would be to show me how you feel...

I have a bad habit but I have no intention of correcting it. I will only voice out and sort things out clearly after I have let go of something. The first time I fell for someone, that's a crush. The crush lasted for 2 years and within the 2 years, I never ever approached the guys to ask him about his feeling for me until I had totally gave up on him. At the end of the 2nd years, while we are chit-chatting, I mentioned about our relationship and finally, we came out with a conclusion. However, it doesn't matter anymore, the feeling is gone anyway.

If we failed to voice out our thoughts at the right time, we have failed to hold on to the happiness that has presented before us.

2011-03-21T00:36:00.004+08:00

As much as I could remember, I cried a lot for my friends. In the past, I suffer from backstabbing , betraying and lying by my friends. Each time, it hurts so much that I cried myself to sleep. Perhaps it's due to my emotional characteristic, I cried often and decided to seek comfort from my dad.

Dad said: Life is like a journey on a train and we are the driver of our own train. Your friends come and go. At different period of your life, you will met with new people; new passengers will board your train. However, there is always an ending to all things. People get down at the different stages of your life. But there are also people who got themselves a life-time ticket; they will always be there in every stages of your life.

I believe that the price of the life-time ticket is enduring, accepting, unconditional love and unending giving.

2011-03-17T02:24:00.004+08:00

Discouragement and disappointment are really the tools use by Satan! There are always people around you that will find all sorts of ways to pull you down, to irritate you. You, this well and faithful servant of the Satan! You have done the job so well I thought you are born with this talents!

Have been trying hard to endure and treat you transparent. Thought that as time goes by, you will be more mature and through all the trails that you have went through, I thought that you have at least learn something from it. However, you disappoint me once again. I'm afraid that I can't pretend to be ignorant about your behavior anymore. Try provoking me once more, I make sure you pay twice for all your past doing.

2011-03-03T15:34:00.003+08:00

Damn shit, I am changing my template when I accidentally removed my music player. Just found out that my blog look slightly different in the different computer :p

2011-03-03T14:34:00.003+08:00

Everyone in my life contributes to my growth. I see strengths in everyone. For every event I have experienced, I leaves no regret. I kept all experiences in my heart, in a folder named " Unforgeable memories". Some people may tend to force themselves to forget about their past, forget about a person or an incident but to me, I learnt to accept all these. I acknowledged all the mistakes I have done and learn to move on. Move on with a new start.

Moving on with a new start is: Not to bring your sorrows or grudges to your tomorrow. Start everyday afresh. Be it a quarrel with your friends yesterday or a just ended-relationship. I may have quarreled with my friends the previous day but the next day, I will befriend with the person again. Same to relationsip, today he/she may be your bf/gf but the day after you guys broke up, start everything afresh! Treat them as a new person, a new friend. I believe that this is the secret to long- lasting friendship(:

If I have been an unforgiving person, if i have been holding onto past grudges, then from this moment onwards, I shall be a forgiving person(: Amen! :D

2011-02-21T00:52:00.002+08:00

Singaporeans lead a busy lifestyle, FACT! This is the first time in my entire life that I attended less than 3 gathering in 3 weeks. I only went for cellgroup meeting, service and maybe family gathering all this 3 weeks. Attended less than 3 friends gathering! What the hell is this!

I am totally in short of time! After the completion of tons of projects, I have to start on my revision. I feel that I am really behind time. I tried to focus on my revision but I fell sick again. Fortunately, days passed and I can really see my handwork being paid off. And as usual, I am still leading a happy lifestyle. This is what I call: 苦中作乐！(:

My motivation is to constantly reminding myself that I have 6 weeks to play after the exams. I have so much things that I want to do during the holidays! I wanna go Malaysia eat dim sum, go Sentosa, visit Universal Studio, having as many gatherings as possible! It has been a long time since I last met X'vier and my big bunch of jokers! Love their accompany to the max! Gonna play and play and play~

2011-02-19T00:50:00.004+08:00

Through the window of your soul, I can see our sorrow. A smile is faked, a strong front is displayed for all to see. But through that spit second where our eyes met, I saw the tears that u have been hiding from all, the sadness that you have buried deep inside your heart. Although I did not say, but that doesn't mean I know nothing. I just feel that my silence presence will do all the consolation.

Human learn through experience. Whenever you fall, fear not. I am always here looking after you. But first, please allow me to enter, to build fences of protection for you...

2011-02-16T09:18:00.002+08:00

HooHoohoo! Its's Valentine Day again! I went for a date with my girls The one that is not in the photo had went to look for her boyfriend!

We had lots of fun together! But no liquor):
We went to Kbox, vian and me were challenging one another, fighting for the "loud voice champion" position! Of course, I am the winner!

After all the fun,I went home early to celebrate my dad's birthday! He is a valentine's baby but he is not romantic! Guess what he gave my mum for valentine; GINSENG! Joke sia!

Anyway, we celebrated 2 times for him, on Sunday and Monday. When the clock struck 12, both me and my brother went out to the living room to sing birthday song for him. Then on Monday, I bought dessert home and celebrated for him and he smile like a kid! Oh man, at the first sight, I thought I saw the wrong person! My dad can actually smile like a kid!

Hope that this year will be a great and fruitful year for him! I love my Pappy!(:

2011-02-10T12:28:00.002+08:00

Super amazed by the 7 步诗！Previously heard about this poem in a show and it left me with a deep impression.

煮豆燃豆萁，
豆在釜中泣。
本是同根生，
相煎何太急？- 曹植

当时曾有人称赞：天下的才共有十斗，曹植一人就占了七斗。

I am really impressed by how one is able to construct such a powerful poem in just 7 steps.
It consist of many hidden meanings and it expressed how he felt at that point in time. Personally,
 I feel that if one is unable to uphold loyalty toward his friends, he has lost his happiness in life.

Sometimes I feel that some of my friend are being quite harsh on their friends. They criticize and
joke around with no limitation. I don't see the benefits of being harsh to others. Treat people the
way we wanted to be treated! (:

2011-02-08T14:10:00.002+08:00

I am totally a HAPPY GIRL now! CNY is awesome! Currently, I am still in the holiday mood. However, I need to chiong finish all the projects so that I can start my playing again!

I still left with 2 projects and 1 presentation. Woo, and thats THE END...

Gonna wait for the CNY's photos to be uploaded before I share with you guys about my CNY Celebration(:

2011-01-31T13:04:00.002+08:00

Irritating much!!! What the hell, seriously feel like scolding people!

Why do people have to keep their attention on me? Regretted posting on Facebook, I say I like reading letters then they send me letter, I say I like sms people at night then you all sms me! Seriously feeling like scolding you all! It is just that I didn't want to waste my precious time scolding you all in the middle of the night!

I just wanted to be friend, nothing more than that. How I wish you people know how I actually feel. I know you all will read this. So here I am telling you all that I feel irritated knowing that you people are stalking me and that you guys did everything on purpose; write me letter on purpose, sms me on purpose, etc! Please, stop it before I approach you face to face.

2011-01-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

Ring has been a very unique object to me. I feel that every ring brings a significant meaning with them. I am obsessed with rings, I guess my obsession for ring started the moment I came to the world. Whenever I enters an accessories shop, rings always caught my attention and I have problem distancing myself from them. It is very hard for me to reject the thought of buying them.

Each and every ring that I bought for myself marked a significant event,
~The ring I bought with my first pay,
~The ring I bought to reward myself for working hard in exam, etc...

However, my ring always go missing, it really sadden me a lot. Hence, I gonna keep my eyes on them(:

Recently, I bought myself a ring again to welcome the new year!

2011-01-26T14:37:00.002+08:00

During my Intro to Social Environment lesson today, I have really learn a lot from the migrant workers. We have a talk by Healthserve today and I am really touched by their passion for people. They caused me to pause and think how much can I contribute to the needy out there and I really feel that I still have a lot to learn.

During the talk, I found out that these migrant workers have been leading a tough life, they paid thousands of dollar to the agents in their country in order to make sure that they would get a job here in Singapore. Many left from their hometown to pursue a better life for their families but the return of their hard work was just a shattered dreams. One of the migrant workers shared his experience with us . He paid the agent RMB 6000 in order to get a job here. At first, life was relatively reasonable and he worked hard in the construction field. Unfortunately, not long after, an incident occurred during construction work and he broke his legs. He was hospitalized for few months and the employers only pays $2,000 for the whole operation and hospital fees. This is definitely not enough to repay all the hospital bill and he was left to settle the rest of the bill himself. After he discharge from the hospital, he is still unable to work and he was paid only $300 for food and lodging, out of which $200 was spent on the lodging. This is obviously not enough! However, the irresponsible employer did not do anything about it and left him to settle everything himself. In addition, his employer do not acknowledge his injury and do not have intention to compensate to him, thus he turned to the Ministry of Manpower for help. It has been 2 years since he reported the case. He is still waiting for the result of his case and currently, he is unable to work; he do not have a work permit now. Fortunately, Healthserve stepped in to provide help. Healthserve provided lodging and food for him.

I strongly feel that each and everyone of us have the ability to help and educate the migrant workers with the knowledge. They should not approach the middleman and we should warn them beforehand of the problem they may face after they came to Singapore. Black-hearted agents really exist and they earn thousands of dollars from these migrants workers but posted them to work in bad working environment and provide them bad living environment.

This course has really brought my concern to social issues and with the knowledge I am equipped with in the course, I believe I am able to contribute to the society and meet the needs of these people(:

2011-01-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

Sharing something awesome with u guys:

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

~ Unknown

2011-01-23T23:50:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dearest sister.

Dear sister, I want you to know that there is always an end for everything. It really sadden me seeing you crying over him. Personally I feel that getting over him is not a hard thing, but it requires determination. I feel that you are still troubling by the passed relationship because you are still holding on to hope, thinking that one day the guy may patch back again, he will come back to you again. But I feel that its time for you to let go. It is enough, enough of waiting and holding on to pointless hope. Look towards the future, don't be scare to put down your burden, don't be scare to give up totally, I promise I will be here, accompanying you through the whole journey.

Prove to him that you are the kind of girl that will love with all your might and will also let it go when the story end. Where there's a will, there's a way. Stop telling yourself that you will give up but in your heart, you are still holding on to the pointless hope. I can assure you that the only way for you guys to become good friends again is to give up and treat him as JUST A FRIEND again (:

Jiayou, wishing you all the best. I am here, never have the intention to leave. Reach me anytime with just a call(:

2011-01-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

Everyday is packed with happiness and laughter. Although it may be quite tiring for me at time, but I enjoy the accompany of everyone. Looks like being in good mood brings me more ideas on how to organize a great birthday celebration for my beloved friends! I found out that a lot of people is troubling by love relationships and thus, I feel like writing on relationship topic today.

I was happily randomly viewing other's post and this is the post caught my attention:

No One Can Hurt Your Feelings Unless You Allow Them To. People Hurt You Once... But You Repeatedly Hurt Yourself By Remembering How They Have Hurt You.......

It is so true! Whenever someone told me : "It's almost impossible to be friend with your ex again" & "You just don't understand how hurt I am. I will hate him for life", I feel so GOOD! I managed to befriend with my ex again and I know understand they feel after their breakup with their boyfriend. Because I have been through a breakup, I am able to counsel them and they are more willing to listen to my suggestions! It makes me feel so good knowing that I have found relieve and I have putted down the past.

Actually, the solution to this problem is incredibly simple and easy! Forget and forget! I'm sure a lot people will think that it is easy said than done and I agree to it. But there is also a proverb saying "Where there's will, there's a way".

First, you can start by stopping the cycle of the negative thought. You have to stop thinking about him/her and do not allow your world to rotate around him/her! Place your attention on a more important issue.

Second, convert your negative thoughts to positive thoughts. We always learn something out of every relationship and acknowledge the fact that both parties will lead a better life after the breakup.

Lastly, understand that both parties are responsible for the breakup. Forget the bad memories that has taken place and take in only the good side of the whole experience. We have limited memory so why not take in only the good and valuable memories? In the bible, it says "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses" (Mark 11: 25)

Time is precious, I suggest you to spend your time on most important things rather than spending your time hating someone or dwelling in sorrows. Research has shown that a smile will makes people feel happier. Continue smiling and happy always! :D

2011-01-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I do feel that I'm still too weak, weak as in mentally not strong enough. Many a times I have the intention of helping people, improving their life and adding joy in their life. But sometime me myself will be affected by their negativeness, I will feel sad for them and its very hard for me to continue helping them. I have to constantly replenish my optimism and energy in order to keep supplying them with laughter and consolation.

Sometimes, I do wonder whether is there anyone who can notice my sadness and cheer me up in the way he once did. But now he is only a friend, I no longer have the right to ask for consolation and comfort from him. My disguise enables me to escape from so many people, few see the pain in my eye. One day, if I'm drained by too much sorrows and pains due to my concern for others, will someone see me in the eye and give me the comfort I need without me telling&explaining everything to them? He said that he don't deserve me and I should be set free in order for me to help more people. I do feel happy helping people, but many people forgotten that sometime I need a pillar to rely on as well. Alright it doesn't matter, I will just continue and continue all these like daily routine till the day where my energy dries up.

If taking up all the pain and sorrows of these person can make me grow stronger, I don't mind learning through the hard way. Jiayou lo Lin, trails are meant to make you stronger (:

2011-01-12T14:02:00.005+08:00

Ever since I joined Marsiling Secondary Chinese Orchestra, these few years I have never miss out any MCO/MSLCO concerts. This year is an exception): Full house, all tickets have been sold out and this means that I can't go for it! ):

Hmm... should have booked the ticket a long time ago. Freaking sad now, eating ice-cream and snack is not working anymore. Seriously no mood for anything now, except for 五熊 and Fahrenheit! (: Seriously don't feel like doing anything this Friday anymore, feel like skipping my friend's outing...

Sad Life...Hope that my mood will be brighten up again after Friday~

2011-01-11T11:33:00.005+08:00

Sad face sad face, MCO is having their annual concert again! I'm have been invited since last year but it's only this week that I start considering whether to go or not, 5 days before the concert! Still seeking people to go with me, most of my friends not interested in Chinese Orchestra Performance. Initially I only intended to ask people from JXT(since someone is unable to go for it), but none of them want to go~ Damn sad. Sua, then I go ask my other friend. Just feel that some of them may see this as a date that's why I didn't wanna find problem for myself in the first place. But now, looks like I have no other choice~

2011-01-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

Recently one of my friend came up to me asking: "Do girls usually accept a guys just because he is persistent?" and my answer for him is "No". I believe that we really have to meet the right person at the right place, at the right time to make sure that the relationship is a sustainable and beneficial one.

Note to all girls out there: Guard your heart, don't be tempted. Be responsible for your own doing, don't get into relationship with another person just because he has woo you for a very long time(:

2011-01-09T16:09:00.004+08:00

6/01 is a great day for me. I ended class early and went for tim sum and pool with N493& 2 hunks and babes from N504. Whenever I got gastric pain, I feel so good when people shower me with concern. Although I don't really like to make people worry for me, but I tend to be more emotional when I have gastric pain.

At night, I lost my beloved keychain from my friend. And immediately after that, that friend of mine smsed me, saying :Bye people, May we meet in the next life. I see that as a sign and freaked out! Wth, irritating much! But still, it's a great day! For nothing happened to her, her suicide mission failed. Thanks God for that.

Life may be filled with trails and obstacles but as long as we are still alive and continue trying harder and harder, I believe nothing is able to go against us. I felt super blessed to have so many people with me at that time. I called my friend for a very long but I just couldn't reach her. Deep down in my heart I know that I must hear her voice to confirm that she is really fine. I manage to get the house number and called her. The sister say that she is asleep and initially they didn't want to wake her up. Eventually, they were convinced and waken her up. She finally regained her consciousness; she swallowed pills and cough syrup. During the whole process, I was super worried and I admit that I lose my ability to analysis and think. I really hate it when my beloved one leave me; permanently. But luckily, he and Joan is there to calm me down. I lovin' it(:

2011-01-07T14:09:00.004+08:00

Recently just went back to Marsiling Secondary Chinese Orchestra. Looks like all my juniors have grown up! Although I can see that CO is not very united but I'm still hoping for the better. I remember my junior saying that they want to get Gold with Honor for the coming SYF(: I am happy that I get to talk to some of them and that my juniors are willing to share with me about their problems.

Hate it to the core when someone did something that is against human rights and my principles. Hate it when someone out there is bringing hurt to the people around me. I don't understand why some people likes to hurt the weaker one. Those bullies out there better make sure they master the skill of selection, if they were to reach their claws to my beloved one, I will make sure they taste twice the pain. I guess I'm the same as my brother; people hurt me, I can tahan. Bully my friend, they better pray hard.

My code: Repay kindness with kindness x20, repay hurt with (anger+ pain) x2.

2011-01-05T11:01:00.002+08:00

Oh man, I stayed at home for the pass few days to chiong all my work and finally, when I'm almost finish with all my work, teacher add more work to it! Marvelous! Initially I intended to complete all my work and start my playing and having fun again. Now that I have more useless work such as peer evaluation to do, I have to start chiong-ing my work again.

But I feel so good living my life to the fullest. Recently, someone told me that it is impossible for people to stay happy and carefree all the time and I acknowledged that. I believe that happiness lies in our hand, we have the ability to choose the kind of life we want to lead. We can't be happy all the time but I want to maximize my happiness and the happiness of others. This is the life I want to lead. I may have weird thinking and hard to read at times, but I treat that as a form of protection and characteristic. Those who really have the intention of understanding me will work their way through and for those who wish to be just a passerby in my life, let them be.

Dislike explaining, misunderstand me for all they wish. I am already blessed to have so much people around me that really understand me better than I understand myself(:

2011-01-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

This year start off well! I lovin' it!
But I'm so exhausted, never really have the chance to rest:
Day 1: Shopping, service and drinking session
Day 2: Shopping
Day 3: Witnessed a fight and slept at 3 plus. Do projects

Constantly thanking God for everyone and everything He have brought into my life(:

2010-12-31T14:32:00.002+08:00

Although he say our breakup is nothing to do with his feeling for his ex, but deep down I know that it is because he still can't let go, that's why we broke up. Shit, dislike it when I feel that my first love is just someone's alternative. Trying hard to let go and I know I can. There maybe times where I will still think of him but perhaps, as time goes by, the feeling will fade. By that time, I know that we will never be able to go back to BGR again. Then let us be friends.

Just ended a relationship and many stupid guys is "pestering" me. I didn't even spread the message that I broke up with him le lo; I wonder who is the big mouth >:c But kinda hate it when they continuously smsing me, maybe with the intention of entertaining me. Seriously, I really don't appreciate that. I don't need protections from guys, I don't need all those special privileges, I am independent. I can never understand why people always think that I need the accompany of other guys when actually I just need one. Although I can say that I'm enjoying my life now and everyone around me is making me extremely happy but I know that something is missing. Gave him a piece of my heart and I know that I will never be able to take it back.

I started to pray for him and Grace this few days, that they are able to receive their breakthrough and master the skill of forgiveness. It will really makes me feel better if they are to go back together. New Year is coming is no time! In this coming new year, I'm certain that we will be able to experience a different things and as I grow older and older, I know and I know that I am going to be stronger and stronger(:

2010-12-27T22:30:00.002+08:00

Just finished my projects on the Cambodia trip. After a long time of slacking, I really find it quite hard to sit still and concentrate in my work at first, but through Him I'm disciplined.

Through this project, I started to recall my life over there again. I have to keep deleting all my personal comments I have along to way, I'm too used to letting my emotions get wild. I wrote quite a bit on the research project but later feel that I'm a bit out of point, thus I copied a bit of my work( Instead of deleting all of them) and decided to place it on my blog!(:
Our story:

Their friendship is rarely seen in Singapore. One of the families we interviewed finally have their first harvest in the past 3 years and all the neighbors were so happy for them! The neighbors went to their land of crop to help them out with the harvesting. This is really friendship we are talking about, cheer as one succeeds and console when one is down.

Another families we interviewed has their house make out from stack of leaves as the roof and secured with branches and wood, the apartment is no bigger than Singapore’s one room flat. Although rain may drip in her house and life may be quite hard during the raining season but they were contented with what they have. The wife just hopes that they may have enough to eat. Through them, we see contentment and joy. Happiness shouldn’t be measure in term of luxuries and finance, they are thankful with what they have. It is true that thankful people are happy people.

2010-12-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

A lot of songs flash through my mind; I'm ok, 半情歌& 聊天...

All these are the songs of my heart. Although we are only together for 29 days, but I learn a lot of things through this relationship. After we broke up yesterday, I went over to my friend house. My friends were so concern about me, but that only makes me cry harder. Its like I found consolation and thus, I cried my heart out. Sometimes I wonder if I am a water tap in my previous life.

I thought over it and I understand that in every issue, both sides have to play a part. Me too have to be responsible of this outcome. But still, I never regret speaking things out with him. What sadden me is just that it seems like he is hurt and that was not my motive! I thought I could help him to get over the past, perhaps I was wrong. I still don't have the right to do so.

In this relationship, I think he should be the more tiring one. Having such a noob and ignorant girlfriend for 29days. Teaching me how to love, how to open up... Finally, after all these experiences, I intended to give my all and be open, putting all my worries of being hurt aside. But still, its too late.

I cried out and comfort comes. No matter what, I still trust in Him. It really makes me feel better thinking that he is leading a better life after the break up. Then at least I can say that I did a right thing. Constantly praying that he is happy, cheerful and carefree.

Bye bye my 29 days boyfriend, be happy always...

2010-12-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

I am ready....
But recently someone told me that I wasn't ready. Perhaps its because of how I behaved in the past, hiding and avoiding... Should I be disappointed? Finally I have secure my stand and gone through the trails but everything just went back to the beginning. Understandable, after all I have weird thinking at times.

Spend a bit of time thinking over it and I found that perhaps there are more things await for me other than all these issues. I just came back from Cambodia and the people there really touched my heart. The class was bonded and we were treated with hostility over there. Great honor.

So I came to feel that even if I hold onto things that is not meant to be mine at the moment, its just a waste of time. Heartache would be felt but I want to be positive! I know that what I really want is to spread laughter and joy to many! Someone prayed for me to be Mature in Christ and being a Blessing to Many. Perhaps its not the time yet, just as what he said, we need more time. Hence, I gonna spread all my attention to others that I hadn't reach out to and spend my time doing more things for less unfortunate.

Let everything return to its place, let time be the evidence...

2010-12-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

"忙人的时间最多" How true is that!

Whenever I am bombarded with tons of homework, I never fail to calm myself down and spend the least time to complete everything. When I look back at all the work I've done, a sense of achievement arose from within. It just feels so good!

But that means that I do not have time for all my friends and myself. I slept late these few nights and I really have to struggle to keep myself awake in class. Its like a mental& physical fight! That's why I have to tamper myself with tons of chocolate, sweets and Starbucks!(:

Hope that all my effort can really be paid off and that we will bond so well during this trip in Cambodia. I will enjoy the whole trip! (;

2010-12-01T09:39:00.000+08:00

Check out the online phrase below, I think its kinda cool!

Easy come, easy go
Eat,drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die

Everything comes to him who waits
Failing to plan is planning to fail

Faint heart never won fair lady
Fair exchange is no robbery

See a pin and pick it up, all the day you'll have good luck;
see a pin and let it lie, bad luck you'll have all day

2010-11-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

What a grave mistake I have made. How can I let my stupidity and curiosity get over me?
Just hurt someone closed to me. Since when have I changed into a person who pays no attention to her own promise? I shall have inform her at the first moment and not wait for the next time I see her to inform her of this news. Utterly disappointed in myself....

2010-11-22T14:26:00.000+08:00

Why is it that people want me to tell them everything but they like to keep things to themselves? I also want to be their shelter and guide when they are lost and sad. Then I tried to ask them but still, all my effort went down the drain... In this case, if this is what they want then I shall give it to them. I did tried to ask and approach them, but they doesn't wanna say I can't just force them to speak things out right?! Hence, I shall leave it to them.

But I really believe that if this goes on, one day they may find it hard to bear and give up everything. I am trying hard to stop this situation from happening but still, I have to respect their will. Not willing to say, then is alright. Just hope the best for them, if one day they found it unbearable and breakdown or give up everything, I guess I am not in the position is saying or doing anything either.

2010-11-20T12:31:00.000+08:00

These few weeks, parents have been quarreling. I am trying hard to stay optimistic and bond the family together. I tried to reconcile the relationship but my bro just hack care. They don't want to get involve in their conflict. I tried to arrange family gathering but a lot of time the gathering was cancelled last minute. Kinda disappointed and sad. But still,I continue to pray about it,hoping that my prayer will be answer and we will be living in happiness and joy again Finally, God answered my prayer,mum agreed to go on a family gathering this sunday. But it crashed with cellgroup gathering,this is like kinda sad le. Both are equally important to me and I understand that this may be the last gathering for N493,but...
)':

2010-11-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

I have been enjoying my life during these two weeks. I enjoyed the process of planning and doing all the birthday cards; although it do kills my braincells, I enjoyed the 11 day meeting(: We started sometime called the 11 days "meeting" and well, its good. 3 movies, good meals, good ICE-CREAM! Woo! This is what I call LIFE! I L.O.V.E my Ice-Cream! But if there is cheesecake to mix along with my ice-cream, my life will be more lovely and happy! First time trying alcohol ice-cream, first time having an 11 days meeting and first time doing so many things in a row! What a good experience ya! I am so looking forward to the school holiday, I can go traveling around again! Gonna start my shopping and eating section soon! Life is so meaningful and enjoyable. Consistently thanking God for everyone and everything He place in my life. With Him, My life is filled(:

2010-11-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

The start of the second month. Things are going smoothly but quickly! Which leaves me to wonder whether it is a good sign or a bad sign?! First time experiencing so much. It is like, there are more and more things left to be find out and experience together(:

2010-10-28T11:46:00.001+08:00

Every time I log into my blogger again, wishing to really express out my thoughts and feeling, I hesitated. Perhaps I am not very expressive after all. Sometime I really wanted to express out all my thoughts, but it is just that I don't feel comfortable expressing myself so openly to the others. I mean I am not good at expressing my thoughts and feeling.

However, recently I tried to open up my thoughts and that's like my limit! It's really quite hard for me but still, I want to give it a try. But unfortunately, I always screw up everything in the end. It's like the duration of the 'heart-opening' section will just operate for a short moment. After a while of trying to express out my thoughts, I will unconsciously turn into a riccio, hurting the ones that want to understand me more.

It is true that it will take a long time to really understand me. For I seldom express out my thoughts, however, I prefer people to figure out what I am thinking/feel by themselves. I am pretty bad at expressing ya...

2010-10-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

Life is filled with trails...

Trails are meant to strengthen us and not to bring us down. I want to continue growing stronger and stronger so as to be able to withstand all trails and learn from each experiences. Time shall be my evidence in my spiritual and physical growth, that as time goes by, I will be more mature and equip myself with better handling skills.

New school term is starting! I do not want to repeat the same mistakes again. Its indeed wrong to be complacent. I am gonna to pull up my result and that I shall master the skill of self-discipline; that I shall play and enjoy life to its fullest on holiday but on school days, I shall make full use of my time to study hard!(:

Problems are meant to be solve, obstacles are meant to be overcome and life is meant to be wonderful and enjoyable(:

2010-10-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

There is always an end to everything, though it may come in form of expiry date for food or a full-stop for a sentence. Hence, what really matters the most to me is the process. We cannot control the outcome but I believe that we still have the ability to prevent undesirable things to happen and also, to enjoy the process! Processes shape the outcome.

Its good that when everything comes to its end, there are still something worth us recalling and remembering about. I am grate that most of the things in my world is good but still, when I feel that it has come to an end, I will not hesitate to let it go. It may not a pity for not holding on to the opportunity or giving it a try. But at least no pain is attached to all these memories. What remains in my mind is just the laughter and fun. And that's sufficient for me.

"Let nature takes it cause", its the way of life.

2010-09-12T01:28:00.000+08:00

"I cried that I have no shoes, till I saw someone with no legs"

14 simple English words that build up a great meaning. Living in this materialistic world, there are times where our eyes is being covered by our own desires. Lack to consider the pro and cons and drain ourselves in in-contentment, failed to see how fortunate we are.

Many a time we tended to look only at our own benefits and welfare, neglected the welfare of many unfortunates out there. They are the one that are really living in sorrow and harsh living conditions. However, as long as they are able to overcome those obstacles in life, I believe that it will definitely be the best training for them and eventually, it will prepare them for the brighter future.

We just have to continue praying and wishing, hoping and dreaming. With God, all thing are possible. With dreams, you can shape your own future! Stay strong in harsh condition and never forget to GIVE! Having the ability to give is also a form of God's blessing(:

2010-08-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

Today is definitely a great day! Although these few days is quite tiring and a bit painful for me (due to gastric problems) but afterall it is still a great time(:

I managed to leave some of my time to queue today! But I didn't really queue la, cause I have to make the banner for Huahui. But at least I managed to find the time to queue! I am so happy. Next is the smile that I saw! Huahui seems to be very happy when she received the card and I really feel very good! I am so so so happy!

In total, everything was fine until the trip back home. My friends are very concerned about me and offered to send me home, because they know that I have been constantly being harassed all those stupid and idiotic stalker out there. But I really don't want to make them worry and I don't want to bother them. Everyone seems to be very tired after the long day and it is definitely not their responsibility to escort me home! I am a big girl now and I don't want people to get worry because of me.

So I rejected the offer and despite the fact of one of my friend wanted to take money from the rest of my cellgroup members to allow me to hire a cab home, I actually threw my temper at him. Just because he told the rest about the stalker things. I felt so annoyed when he told everyone about this thing as I feel that but doing so, he will only make everyone worry, which is not what I want! But it doesn't mean anymore. Everything has been cleared out.

At first, I thought that by going home on my own will put everyone at ease. But how wrong I am. I will only make people even more worried when I reject their offer. Come to think again, how much people have I rejected through this few years? I always wanted to be a strong girl and handle my own problem, I have been rejecting people's offer for I only want to be the person that cares for others but not the reverse way. But this seems to be wrong. I could probably feel how these people when I rejected their offer!

I am still figuring out whether is it right or wrong to be strong.Will not relying on others actually make me stronger? But I really doesn't want to rely on others, I want to be independent. But why am I always making people worry? I know that relying on others will lead to habit and thus, I doesn't want to start this habit. I understand that there may not be a fixed answer to everything and thus, maybe I should start to adjust my beliefs again and perhaps, I should start to rely on others a bit so as prevent myself from keeping every unhappiness within me(:

2010-08-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

Today is such a great and interesting day for me! WoO, I am just so happy to be able to meet the monsters for an awesome outing! Thus, despite the fact that I am damn tired now, I still wanna to jot down my feeling for the day.

It has been a long time since my last gathering with all the monsters and some of my other friends. Recent few weeks, I have been rejecting a lot of outing and I really feels very sorry about it. My time is really very packed and after being appointed to be the birthday coordinator, it just makes my time more shrink up. I never know that being a birthday coordinator will be so busy. But I still never regret for accepting this role and it really makes me very satisfy when I saw the smile on their faces. Even though I may not be doing it very well but every time I plan for someone's birthday, I really put in all my heart and wishes. It is like within that few hours, I am injecting all my greeting into the card and hope that the person receiving it will be so blessed(:

We went to Bontanic Garden to picnic where we have lots of laughter and forfeit and went for an awesome movie! STEP UP is such a great movie! Love it TTM!

I really hope that I will have more time for all my other friends. I want to fill their life with lots of laughter as far as possible. Hope that my wishes will come through...

2010-08-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

I am really freaking irritated by the school website! What is the problem with the website sia! Bounce me off which causes me late for the submission for the project still not enough and now, even the submission of the project also got problem! Wth, this is damn piss and make me feels so demoralize! I have not been having a great time doing all this homework and after 2 hard weeks of doing the project, I thought at last I am able to rest for a while. But who knows, the project is keep giving me problem! What they actually want from me! All my effort is like not of a use and goes down the drain!

I really feel like giving up sometime and I might as well quit school! But I will try to press on. I know and I know that things will eventually get better and I will definitely succeed! All th tears and hardwork that I am paying now is not only for my own sake, it is also for all the people that I want to reach out there! Hang on girl, jiayou ba!(: Fill everyday with lots and lots of smile and happiness(:

2010-07-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

Last week have definitely been a busy week.3 projects crammed together and this week I still have to work on the other two projects.I hope that I am still able to find some time for myself. Due to the lack of sleep this two week, illness starts to get over me and I just have to get use to the coughing and high fever.

After the incident in lower secondary, I thought I would have learn to be more clever le de. I thought I will never fall in the same trap again. But things wasn't this way. It seems to be like a continue cycle. At first, I may still feel sad from the cold shoulder. But it seems like I have got use to it. But the others is right. Things should not be happening in this way.Thus, perhaps it is time for me to pause and think over.

Started to get confuse.Wondering if the happiness beforehand is just a wrong signal given to me. But no matter what, I think I got the message.Thank for all the people that gives me advise if not, I may never know that there will be other interpretations to the issue. First time feels that over optimistic= ignorant.

But it is alright now. For I have decided on the next step. I am gonna to let everything return to normal, if this way could change the situation for a better one. At times where I am too stubborn and keep hanging on to it, I will constantly remind myself of the impossibility and I will hide my feeling so well that no one will be able to find out unless I want them to know.

I am not being emo and I will never be emo. For I am happiieva! Happiieva is pro is countering sadness and stress ya(;

2010-07-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

Coming to school early in the morning, meeting my friend before the class starts. But it is this particular time where some of my classmate mentioned about the changing of course issue. It seems like a lot of them is having a hard time through this BIZMGT project and the stress resulted seems to weigh everyone down. This causes me to pause and started to think of why am I in this course.

This course is not my 1st choice and my impression for this course relies only on these few months of studies. But through this few weeks, I grown to like this course, my classmates and I had also developed passion and feeling for this course.

It is a fact that we are having a hard and busy time here, but I believe that there has to be a reason for this outcome. Through this project, I determine to provide P&L and Balance Sheet available for everyone when I have my own SE next time(:

I believe that trials are meant to make us stronger. If we are able to endure through this 3 years, this may means that we can achieve greater thing for both the society and ourselves. Big dreams can only be fulfilled by a strong& determined person.

2010-07-14T16:50:00.001+08:00

Feeling low again... But as usual, my sadness didn't follows me for too long. I remembered that I used to cry a lot last time, in times of happy and sad. But now a days, I don't really cry anymore. Sometimes I hope that I am put down my dignity and cry out loud. But I just couldn't! Since when did I lose the skill of crying?! Perhaps, this means that I am stronger now.

Relationships and friendship is bothering me. But these are the things that I have no control of. I wanted to talk out the issue, but it just seems that I am the only one having this thought. Why can't people just talk things out? Afraid to hurt me or what? I may not be that strong, but by not talking it out is hurting me even more! If only them are willing to talk things out, then maybe I will just cry over it for once and that's it! I will be happy again. Better than torturing me day by day. Ok, I admit that I am a retard. I may not catch your hints. So, please, go straight to the point okay!

But luckily, I am born in the way that I am able to self-distress & self- entertain(: Because I only like to present the happy side of me and is not good at expressing my sorrow, I mastered the skill of self-distress.

Thankyou Caramel Latte( my new found favorite) that brings laughter& optimistic back to me again(:

2010-06-28T11:17:00.000+08:00

This week is awesome for me! All my dreams were fulfilled and I have lead a happy week. Although time are limited and compacted, but I really enjoyed myself!

I am happy that I have spent great times with my classmates, one of the advantages of participating in the GK Summit. I may regret attending it in the starting, but I cannot deny that the GK Summit really bonded us(:

I managed to attend the cg meeting this Friday and I have to comment that this cg meeting is good! A lot of them shed. Whenever there is people around me crying, they maybe be just a stranger or someone close to me, I would want to stay back their side or just do whatever I can to make them feel better.

Didn't attend the GK Summit this Saturday& Sunday. I went to Malaysia. My grandma is sicked. Fortunately, she regained her conscious and seems to be quite okay(: I have had a great time with my younger cousin till 2.30 a.m! Omg, he is still so chubby and energetic!

Thanks everyone that made my life so wonderful and interesting! I love to fill my days with jokes and laughter. With a heart filled with gratefulness, I should end this blogging. Fill yourself with the picture below!

2010-06-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

WoO! There goes my term break! Engrossing myself in all sort of meeting for the GK Summit.

I am damn busy this few week and the restarting of school simply represented the start of my exam & more projects!

But I am happy that I made some changes throughout this few weeks. I cleared out my thought and talked things out. Aww... wat can I say?! Erm, that simply means that I have took the first step and that is all I can do! What follows lies on the opposite party.

Cool. Just took some wine and is a bit drunk by now. Wasn't quite sure of what I am typing now. Got to catch some sleep. Bye guys(:

2010-06-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

I have always craved for ice-creams every time I feel sad, stress or sick. The cold ice-creams just seems to make me feel better.

For the first time after I joined the new school, I got sick and felt extremely unwell. My head is damn pain and I really feel like throw tantrum, but luckily, I am still able to control myself.

I wonder if there is other people who is like me and always feel like crying whenever I falls sick. Perhaps crying out makes me feel better. But I really have no idea why will I feel like crying yesterday. Is it because I am not feeling well or is it because I am stress or is it cause I am spiritually drained and subconsciously felt sad?! I don't even have any idea of why I behave this way myself.

Although I did spent great time in school, my classmate are damn joker. But I still feels tired, both spiritually and physically perhaps. I think that's because I do not have enough time for myself and is feeling damn tired everyday.

I always force myself to wake up and tell myself: " atmosphere is dependent on how we want it to be" but, I am still feeling tired.

And so, I gonna rest well and adore myself more(:
Best wishes to all around me and rest well, just like I will(:

2010-05-31T10:36:00.000+08:00

Omg! This few days I am damn busy and engrossed in Asia Conference and all the gathering. Lots of people have been commenting to me that they really envy me a lot as I have been having many gathering with my friends.

Firstly, I want to ensure all my friends that church will enever EVER be a reason for me for not attending any gathering! I wonder if any of my friends will have the concept that I am busy with all the church stuff and will definitely neglect them one day. BUT trust me, I won't.

Next, I am damn happy as I got more and more closer to my classmate.I think they gonna see my true color already,haha. And my friend is like saying things about 'happiieva'. O shit, I don't want!

Luckily, thank god that I am so bless and that I have clear out my thoughts, ( thanks all the guys behind the scene that keep on encouraging me too)! I gonna do I want and not being influence by my own idiotic thoughts. What I wanna see is not my own happiness, what matters the most is the people around me and the people that I cared for. Their happiness is then the best thing and the top news that I gonna be concern about. I see them happy, I am happy enough.

Lastly, I hope that all the Chua, Ng and Chong can faster send my all the photos before I could post them on blog.

2010-05-22T12:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah! This week is such an memorable week for me! Since this wk, I have celebrated my birthday with both the cell group and my friends. This is such a waste that the 'photographer' is not here to take the pic, as that is my 1st birthday with N493! I am so grate to be part of them and so, I felt thankful towards Marcus.

Next, we went to Joan's house and celebrated my B.dae there. First B.dae countdown... It really left a deep impression for me.I enjoyed the whole night and there is a big surprise for me! They all wanted to trick me into wearing bikini! I have instinct that that it the case already. But the best present that I received is from them too! They made a happy B.dae card folio for me!

I guess no 1 will understand my feeling and how happy I am to receive the present. This folio consist of everyone's B.dae wish for me and their very own pic! Grate to receive that! Damn happy and this happiness lies with me for quite some time.

I am sure Jing& Joan have spent a hard time doing this! And there is something that Jing told me ad I am sure I will remember it for life. She said:
They asked me why they have to spend such an effort to do this thing and making it so troublesome?
And Jing answered: B.cuz Kam Lin don't bother about the value of the present. What she value is the thought and it is only this kinda present that she will treasure so much. She is not a material person, what she value is those unmeasurable thoughts.
Omg, I am so happy to hear that la. They are understand me so much sia! They know what I value the best and gone through so much trouble to prepare this special present for me! Omg, even till now, when I recall about the scene, I still feel so blessed and happy(:

3rd, is the celebration with my family. All of my family members is so busy and my bro is also preparing hard for his exam. But still, despite that we already celebrated mother day grandly, they still wanna to celebrate for me and my bro(bro's b.dae: 20 may)

4th, very sorry to thee 5 Bros, damn sorry. But I am still very happy with arrangement and celebration(:

Thankyou everyone(:

2010-05-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

Everything has came to the end; sadness, relationship and our feeling for one another...

But what left in my mind is all those memories(: I knew that I have STM and so, I will regularly sort up all the previous memories and make sure that only the happy memories lies inside my brain, and maybe this is what people call: Making full use of available space(:

Firstly, I thanks GOD for enabling me to sort out my thought. Sometime its really pain to hang onto your belief. I guess no one would understand how I felt previously. But is alright now, as GOD has help me. He sent HuaHui to give my hints that perhaps, I shouldn't continue to hang on to my thought. Nothing has changed. The only thing that changes is only my emotion= from HAPPIIEVA to SADEVA....

But it is alright now, for I have finish sorting up my thought. I may spent weeks being troubled by the issue, but it just took me an hour to store out my emotion.

I am now living a life of mine, a life of happiieva and so, I shall live up to the name " Happiieva"!

From the moment I store up my thought,I injecteded tons of vitamins to my body! I am strong now and Nothing& Nobody is able to defeat me!

In the future, if there is really a situation where I am sick again, shall all my friend remember to buy me vitamins and play the role of a nurse ya(:

Thanks for being there for me when I am in need, I felt so blessed. I <3 the world, I <3 JXT and I <3 everyone around me(:

2010-04-17T01:33:00.000+08:00

Previous few days are quite a terrible time for me. I was engraved in friendship issue; or shld I say its sisterhood issue...? All I can say is tat its complicated. But everything is gonna 2 end. As I have given a though thought about this issue and I have gotten an ans 4 myself.

But maybe I shldn't even mention e word 'sisterhood', as me n her is not even sis now le.She mentioned a break in our sisterhood...

I wanna to find a better way out 4 myself.I dun wan myself to get stuck in sadness.So I wun allow myself to even think abt this issue.I keep distracting myself and make sure I am always Happy! I bet not thinking abt it is e only way out for me.

But my sorrow didn't lasted long.As I packed myself with lots of event everyday and buried myself in happiness. After the FOC, I extremely missed jing they all.So I met up with them and had our dinner 2gth at jing's hse. This placed a pleasant ending 4 e day.We filled e hse with lots of laughter and i continued to meet up with them 4 e following days.

I <3>

2010-03-31T17:08:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I last posted.This few weeks is busy with all the outing.I am enjoying the last period of my 'holiday'.The new school term will be starting in 19 April and I will be attending all the Freshman Orientation Camp& Induction program on 12,13&14 April.

I have been mentally prepared for the new school term and hope that all my new school mates will be the interesting fellow.What I am left to do is to shop!Shop for the new school bag, new wallet, new pencilcase...

Hope that all of you is looking forward to the new school life just as I am and I promise that no matter which school we are, we will always stay close(:

2010-02-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

两年的友情不是白交的。这两年里，我们天天坐在对方的旁边，说着心事，说着秘密，一直找机会恶整对方。虽然说我们早就知道说你可能真的会出国，可当事情摊在我们面前时，那又是另一件事了。

现在的你要走了，要出国留学了，不经让我觉得这次sentosa 的 outing 很有可能是我们最后一次聚在一起了... ...

虽让我很不想承认，但我不得不说以后的我们可能都见不到面了。Joan & Marcus 他们说你去 Australia 了没有关系的，因为还有 Facebook,MSN... 通过这些我们还是能联络。可是对我来说，那种感觉是不一样的。你又住在马来西亚，所以以后要见你一面才是真正的难!

我还想帮你庆祝生日，一起过圣诞节，friendship day...

其实，我最不想你出国的原因是因为我怕你忘记我们，怕以后我们就算真的在街上见到面你也认不得我了。害怕你以后见到我时有了陌生感，连打个招呼也省了。

我就不想跟你做熟系的陌生人啊！

翻了翻我所有的照片，才找到一下这几张我们一起的合照... ...
若上帝真的要我们的友情就此结束，那我将好好的保留这些我们曾经有过的美好回忆，并在想念你的时候再次地翻看这些照片- 希望能再次重温我们昔日美好的经历。

2010-02-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

After 4 yrs of sec sch life, I finally able to graduate and choose e sch of my choice.But how could I know tat I have made such an unsuitable choice?!

So I tried appealing.But in the end, all my effort still went down e drain.Frankly speaking, 我真的很不甘心！But i think there is nth much I can do le. I have tried all I can to amend e mistake that I made myself.But it seem that I am fate to be punished for making a harsh choice; or should I say that I am fate to be in NP.

No matter wat, I am thankful toward those tat are being so concern abt my appealing and wished me good luck; though sometime luck may not be useful.

But no matter what, at least I did try to gain e chance.4 yrs studying in MSL, this will definitely left a deep memories in both my heart& mind...

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